A mothers letter

I gave you birth
but I did not give you life.
You are not mine.
You do not belong to me.
I do not own you.
You are nothing less than a miracle.
A reason for me to celebrate.

You are an amanat (gift) form Allah (SWT). An infinite, irreplaceable treasure that fills my soul with light every time your face crosses my eyes. And every time you cry you make me bleed. Your laugh is like a drug, and I ache for it every single second of life.

I wish I could take the world, mold it and make it kind enough so it could fit your heart. I wish I could alter the universe so it would be a place of refuge for you. If only I could give you happiness and take away all your sadness I would do it with the snap of my finger. If only I could see into the future, I’d protect you from every single event that would cause you pain.

I wish I could stop time so you could stay as you are, away from the tragedies of this world, away from the ache. Your soul is too precious to be tainted by despair.

I cannot promise you infinite joy my love, nor can I promise you everything you desire. But I promise to help you in every step of life. I promise to act as your shield whenever you need me.

I won’t promise you that you won’t fall, but I will be there to catch you. I can’t promise you the mountains but I can promise you wings. I can’t promise you that you won’t ache, but I will be there to put a salve on your wound. I can’t promise you that you won’t bleed, but I will be there with a needle to sew your wounds. I can’t promise you that the world won’t hurt you but I promise to mold your heart out of gold. I can’t promise you that you won’t drown, but I will be there as a life boat. I can’t promise you that you won’t crash, but I will be there to pick you up. I can’t promise you that you won’t lose your way but I will be there as your road. I can’t promise you victory but I can promise you courage and faith and hope.

My love. The world is not kind, but I will pour all the kindness I can in you. The world is dark, but I will brighten you up.

Remember that your mother will always be by your side like a shadow whenever you need her.

Love,
Your Mother